Unraveling on a Thursday

 These two poems seem to go together.  I wrote them during April 2025, which is National Poetry Month, based on Writer's Digest poetry prompts.

10:09 AM on a Thursday

in April and it starts
plut plut plut
on the hood of my raincoat
as I’m walking and it
makes me smile.
Early this morning the birds
frantically told me this rain
was coming, the clouds headed
our way, the sunrise not to be
taken advantage of because
that sun would soon be covered
by a blanket of white and silver,
dropping its treasure below.
I do not shorten my stroll
which startles four mallards
on the small pond, who move
to the other side to shake their
heads and wings at me—or
the raindrops falling—and paddle
noisily along the far edge, bodies
gliding. I finish my walk and
head back inside. Later that
afternoon the rain stops and
the silence in the office is so loud
I can hear my tinnitus singing
in my ears. At 3:29 PM I open
the door, peek my head out,
and it starts.
The bunching of tear ducts.
The tears rolling down my face.
I don’t know where they come from.
Relief. Overwhelmed. Exhausted.
Overextended. Happiness. Gratitude.
Whatever their source, their purpose,
I let them fall—my own rain shower,
my own silver lining. The treasure
I drop to the ground below,
joining the rivulets from the sky,
traveling away to join the soil.

Unraveling

(with prompts from @imandq)

 

All morning my mind has been
in a state of disquiet like the
sleepless wind so I begin the
percussion of feet against blacktop
before the thoughts within me
melt my brain. I’d like to see the sun
after so much grey. The weekend spent
alone brought about a vintage
loneliness, a familiar tingle like
rereading a long-forgotten memoir
once upon a time I was…
listening to cavernous whispers
and tracing the lines of my hands
wanting to read the future of it all
but my reflection has changed
and though letting go left a mark
I see through the seeping blindness
that this stepping has taken me
down a road I’ve been before,
and looking up I see her, a bald eagle.
She swoops down to me, hovering above
so close I can see her feathers and
the curve of her yellow beak.
I stop and stare. Just take it all in.
The eagle, silently soaring in the sky.
The frogs’ prolific symphony.
The partial sun igniting
every busy word in my mind.
All this, unraveling the knots in me.

***

I did not get a picture of the eagle.
Some moments aren’t meant
to be photographed.

 

by Julie S. Paschold
aka Tansy Julie the Soaring Eagle

April 2025

***

Julie S. Paschold: Poet, Artist, Agronomist from Nebraska. Author of Horizons (won 2024 Nebraska Book Award) & Human Nature. Semi-finalist in Kate Sommers Memorial Prize, honorable mention in two Writer's Digest contests. Resident Poetry Instructor at Omaha’s Lauritzen Gardens. Volunteer for the Human Library Organization. https://medium.com/@jpaschold or https://jpaschold.blogspot.com/ .

The Beginning: A Poem

 The Beginning

a poem

Do you ever wonder how the world began?

The Beginning

Scientists probe into the journey
toward the beginning of the world;
ask such questions.

Who came first: the fish or the frog?
Is the Neanderthal our cousin or our brother?
Who initially reached for soil: roots or legs?

The earth left clues written in code
formed from another language, one
partially erased from a time
long forgotten, long passed; 

                                                a time
before the moon threw back the tides
and stars gazed at the barren sands.

We are made of cells; cells made of
organelles; organelles made of molecules;
molecules of atoms;

                               our endless world
so vast and sturdy, yet so infinitely
tiny and delicate. We are substance
and air, liquid and solid, mass and energy
combined. 

                    For all we have discovered
and defined, we are left baffled—
how intricate and extravagant,
how complex and perplexing,
how wondrous this all is!

Whether root or fin or leg or membrane,
cousin or brother,
sea or land or air or magma,

we are all part of one story, one world,
one amazing timeline, we sparkles
in God’s eye, we miracles of life,

we unexplainable wonders that keep
the experts guessing, questioning,
seeking explanations

                            for the beginning
of a world that stretches, perhaps,
to eternity.

 

 

by Julie S. Paschold
aka Tansy Julie the Soaring Eagle

4.10.25

 

Sacred Interruptions

--to the Rise Collective

 

-1-

Sacred spaces lit by the jewel
of a dragonfly wing,
supplied by Mother Nature herself,
interrupted only by the babbling
of the stones under current of water.

Sacred spaces of our creation,
whirring of fan blowing spirits of the past,
these winged blades of air
bearing their weightless support
yearning to yield pain to peace,
scream to smile, anxiety and anger
to aimless meanderings.

Can anywhere become sacred upon
our blessing and amiable ambiance,
upon the releasing of expectations
and stressful resentments and anger
that create separation?

-2-

Sacred moments when weary
becomes rest, when serenity inter-
rupts our strained stress and
allows us breath, when we read
and touch the divine, souls near
intertwine.

 

-3-

If to be sacred is to be dedicated,
to be protected, to be devoted
to a purpose, if we are helping another
to become secure, if we are reaching out
to aid in a being’s wellness,
are we not doing something sacred?

 

-4-

If to be sacred is to be secured
against violation, as by sense of right;
if to be sacred is to be properly immune
from violence and inviolable…
should not all beings be treated as sacred?
Should not all neighbors be souls to aid?
Who are we to bring animosity to another?

 

-5-

If we look at every person,
every animal, every plant,
every thing on this earth,
every stone, particle of soil,
hypha of fungi, molecule of air
as having the potential to change
and therefore living in spirit
and soulful, then sparking
in a godly way, how can we not
see ourselves in a web of endless
spirituality and having the potential
of simmering in sacredness?

 

-6-

Twice I have floated above the earth
and lost time. I was in the center
of a labyrinth, seated cross-legged
on stepping stones placed in the soil.
One of these times, my twin was seated
next to me. We floated together,
as close as we once were in the womb.
I felt the universe and the emptiness
was full of enough love for all.
For everything and everyone.

 

-7-

How, then, do we make these moments,
these places sacred in our lives?

How do we interrupt
the chaos
with the divine?

 ***

by Julie S. Paschold
aka Tansy Julie the Soaring Eagle

2.8.25

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Julie Paschold’s poetry collection, You Have Always Been Here, is a diaphanous touch of a bird feather across your cheek. A whisp of a weaved wing, like an electrical current, a flutter of energy that, like devotion, brings both satisfaction and sadness. She writes of love and the struggle to understand it when mixed with long-held and deep-set beliefs. Julie’s book is a rewarding prayer of and for connection: “because I have been here before,/this reaching for each other,” that once read, “. . .you are never the same/again.”   --Bonnie Johnson-Bartee, author of Cord Blood (2022 Sandhills Press), 2023 Nebraska Book Awards (Poetry Honor award)

Julie S. Paschold’s You Have Always Been Here is at once an intimate queer prayer—to a beloved, to a reader, to a god knit of desire and muscle—and a grief psalm. These poems invite us home to wheelbarrow and highway, to find release in the circles of a body running on a track, a pair of eagles flying, a spring returning with rain that taps “the melody of longing.” In this collection, queer yearning for another—“this reaching for each other”—is a form of faith, knowing that “no matter what does happen / we will be okay with each other / even after it does.” These poems carry us, cradle us through even the after, “free to leave,” reminding us of how to love ourselves and others wide as willow and wind. Let these poems hold you. Let these poems bring you home to your warm body.   -- Kelly Weber (they/she), author of We Are Changed to Deer at the Broken Place and You Bury the Birds in My Pelvis

 In You Have Always Been Here, Julie S. Paschold takes the reader on a journey full of yearning and unrequited desire that is touchingly and honestly portrayed. The poems in this unconventional love story are a heartfelt reflection on the helical nature of connection, love and loss.      --Amy Haddad, author of An Otherwise Healthy Woman

 

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